JEEZ!

So anyone have any idea what the heck is going on with gas prices? I know during the summer they jump but almost 3 bucks a gallon? I also heard the other day that hotel rates are averaging $100. I don't know who "they" is haha but are "they" trying to kill the vacation trade? Economy is def. going to suffer. I haven't noticed an increase in price really at wal-mart or Rays Apple Market or Dillons or anywhere else for that matter. I would assume however that the long the price is up, the better chance for pricing on everything to shoot up due to shipment cost increases and the like.

Spring break pics...

Sorry it took so long to get these up...
















Sorry it took me so long to get these up!

Trip to zoo...

So I really like this picture I took at the zoo. I'm not a good picture taker by all means but I loved the colors and quality of the picture. Cool little Poison Dart Frogs!














I'm not a big fan of Kansas. Probably just because I've lived here all my life. But sometimes I'm in awe of what Kansas really is here in the North East corner. Actually very pretty. Notice the blimp thing...wonder what that was for...?








Forty-Five year old bear. One of the oldest bears in captivity.
















Wasn't the best Bald Eagle I've ever seen...still had the "majestic" feeling about him...














Baby monkey! Mom had to go outside to investigate some noise so I thought it was the perfect time for a shot!

Nice...

How can I try so hard and fail even harder? Why is it the second I take a small break...that break comes back and kicks me in the butt...I'm so close to just quiting...studied hard for an accounting test...didn't even get a 40%...saw stuff on that test I've never seen or heard of before...BS.....did a little better on the MIS test I didn't have time to study for...still a big fat F. I know in my heart I'm not a failure but the notion that I'm becoming one is slowly creeping over me. I pretty much know I'm re-taking atleast one class. I might change my major over to Hotel Restaurant Management. Those classes atleast seem interesting. I have no drive anymore for this semester. The only thing driving me is how I'll feel about myself if I fail everything. I don't even have time to go to Chi Alpha. I get to the point where I just say screw it. All I see is the dark tunnel....no light behind me...no light infront of me...


Peace

Quick update...

*picture in your mind*....guy walks up sets down a bunch of candy, his head swaying back and forth...obviously has a medical condition...I ask him how his day was and all of that which I really do mean....he says he's buying candy for his grandkids....head still swaying almost out of control...he pays...walks out the door heads to a van...places sack in a seat and gets in....starts van...drives off....ISN'T THAT SCARY!!! I feel bad for the guy, it's awesome what he's doing, buying his grandkids candy and spoiling them...but the guy can't keep his head under control and he's driving a mini van!


hah...

I just don't get it???

I'm very glad she came to me and wasn't sugar coating anything. I really honestly am. I hate sugar coated crap, waste of time for both people.

However...

I don't understand how I am selfish by not working on my day off...

Puting school above work...(unless i'm getting paid 40k to work at Ray's I think college is a little more important *wink*)

Being blamed for someone choosing to work for someone else....

I just don't understand.

Brandy isn't mad at me..."to your face" as I was corrected by Jessica.

Is that how the world works? Hug you when you are there and stab you when you turn around? I really don't believe most of my friends are like that. "Innocense until proven guilty" I live by that on a daily basis. One thing is for sure, there are two friends in this world I know beyond a shadow of a doubt love me and care about me...Isaac, Trenton. Some say that's all you need, one good friend. But i'm out to change lives not just stick with a few. Trent's always going to be my boy. That'll never change.

I don't pretend to be holy. Infact it's that goody goody persona that kills me because I've slidden back from it. I want to be seen how I am good with the bad than not seeing the bad and showing fakeness. I get drunk sometimes...I have a problem with my mouth...I'm insensitive to certain things I shouldn't be. Stuff to work on...we are all a work in progress. I would just like to know who is real and who is fake. Does Brandy stab me in the back when I turn around? We all do it sometimes. But if you do it, know it, and don't care it's when it hurts and matters the most.

Who doesn't have Myspace would probably be a better question than who DOES have it. During the afternon break between classes I was surfing the net and ran across a few video cuts on Myspace. I believe it was Dateline that ran the show on Myspace. Anyways a lots rape/murder cases have been linked to Myspace. Being somewhat in disbelief I kept watching. A detective posed as "Matt". A normal 19 year old college guy, new to town and was looking for friends. Before "Matt" knew it he had over 100 friends on myspace. He seemed to connect with 3 young girls. After talking with them for a few weeks and getting information that they willingly gave to him, he contacted their parents and set up an interview. Long story short, neither of the girls realized just what information they gave up. Something as simple as what school you go to, team you play for, name, city can lead any predator to you. "Matt" the detective explained that sites like Myspace are heaven for online predators because they can be anyone they want to, connect with millions of people, and what used to take months of chatting online, the info they crave can come in a matter of days! Moral of story: Be careful what you put online!

I finally did it. I shouldn't have, but I've heard a lol about Mlb.Tv online. So yesterday I bought a month of service for $14.95. So now I get every baseball game (Unless it's blacked out) and can watch them online. I know, I already get every game on the radio with XM...but like I said..I really wanted to try this out! So far it's amazing. Video quality isn't great but not poor. You can watch whole previous games and games from last season etc. Pretty sweet for $15 bucks!

Sorry for anybody that reads this. It's been since spring break since I've posted anything. I guess I haven't had anything happen worth my time to post.

Just got done watching Capote. It's a def. rent for anybody. I didn't know anything about him due to not reading his books or learning about him in classes or anything. I don't even know what to say. I guess I'm in a speechless mood about the whole topic. I might pick up In Cold Blood and give it a read. I've been told that I need to.

Softball game went alright tonight I guess. I hate losing, but it was def. more fun than that game the other night when the wind was blowing really hard.

School isn't going good. My advisor didn't want me to take all these hard classes all at once but I guess I didn't have a choice. So I may have to retake a few next semester. I'm signed up for Kelly Welch's class. I don't need it but it sounds really interesting and have heard really good things about it. I could use a good grade to get my gpa back up.

Nothing new...kinda lonely...

peace