I’m not real sure how to start this. Last night at 4am, while trying to get to sleep, I had this all written out in my head. Life is a funny thing sometimes. Just when you are getting burnt out on it, something comes along and stirs up the little kid in you. Adventure, excitement, laughter, newness, and most important FUN! Notice adventure was first on the list. What was going to be a routine road trip wasn’t. That was just what I needed.

Sunday night I felt like crap and wasn’t planning on leaving Monday night after work with Trent to Wichita. Monday I called in sick to work. I wasn’t going to go on this trip at all. I didn’t feel good, I didn’t want to be stuck down in Oklahoma sick. But I said screw it! I’m going. That begins the small but very rewarding trip that I learned so much about myself on and will never forget.

The formula was simple. Place + means to get there + fun + n!ot knowing what you’re doing = life altering adventure.

We went to this Omniplex place which was a blast. There were lots of stations where you can manipulate things and learn the science behind them. Normally I’m not into doing things like that but they turned out to be a fun experience.

I don’t think Jess or Trent understand what I accomplished. I wouldn’t paint my hair, get a fake tattoo or any of that stuff at the NBA game. But I didn’t care, I had already climbed my Mount Everest. Met Sammy and was just me around her, opened up to Jess and really enjoyed her company. Trent was on his first vacation on his own away from his family. It was fun to see his eyes light up when we did whatever we wanted. He turned into a little kid amazed with everything. Like Trent, we all did. We all accomplished inner goals that continue to mold and shape us. Even though I’m on my way to KC with my family, I can still live my life to the fullest just as I did these past few days. I’m going to try it. Who knows maybe it will change the way I live and I’ll be better for it!

Thank you Trent and Jess…..for being you.

Time to go! My adventure awaits….
Riggz

Lonely...I just have no desire to be crazy and outgoing therefore I sit here on the couch with my beer and an intense lonely feeling. It's nobodies fault, I don't know that it's even mine. Why can't I just be normal and be social? Being shy=fear=my life....

As of today starting August 4th I will be living in1410 Hartman Place #16, aka Chase apartments. Yes! I can't wait!

How do you live a life with no regrets? At the time, you don't regret the decision you made, however later in life you do or might. I wish I could figure that one out.

Chi Alpha was pretty good last night. Don't really have a whole lot to say about it 'cept the cheeto thing was def. interesting...glad I didn't volunteer for that one....ICK.

Hopefully work today will be ok an no stupid freezers go down.

I can't stop being sad! I'm pretty sure I hurt someone but I couldn't help it. I just hope it works out ok....

Peace...

RIP Kirby Pucket....Amazing Player and Better Person.

Do you do something you are hesitant to do in hopes of having a good time? Or do you do what you are somewhat enjoying now? Do I go out with a bunch of people I've never met, be quiet and shy and all that mess....or stay home by myself in my room watching a movie? Watching a movie right now just seems like a waste of a weekend because after tomorrow I'm back in classes and work.....blah

Ouch

I know you'll read this, you comment sometimes. But I can't just keep this inside. Why is it a lot of the things you say come across as a personal stab to the heart? I don't want to not like you. I hate not liking people. It's not me, who I was made to be, and I just simply can't stand it. It seems like you use little comments to just shoot me. I don't even know if you mean to do it or not. However the number of them is increasing so I can't help but think you mean it sometimes. You tell me not to feel dumb and then you make a comment. You seem to know everything and tell me when I'm wrong every chance you get. Yet sometimes you make an innocent funny comment. I don't understand. It's like you hate me and then you don't. Your attitude is such that you need NOBODY. Because I DO care about you that hurts. It hurts because it's driving me away. Away to the point where I try not to care. If your back hurts I don't want to hurt for you. When you mention something in your blog that is sad and means a lot to you I don't want to care. Basically no matter what happens to you I want to be neautral and not give a flying flip. But I can't! Even if I never dated you I'd still care about you! You get online so I ask you about your post. You won't tell me anything...that's fine...your choice...than you add in a comical way that kevin hates my dad. I'm sorry but that was probably the worst thing you could have ever told me and the worst timing in the world. I don't get upset and visually show it. I don't get upset and let people see it. But when it comes to my family I'm ready to go! Sure I'm all upset over this...he'll get over it tomorrow...BUT THIS IS HOW IT FEELS RIGHT THE **** NOW!

Everybody reading this....this is why I'm shy....why the heck should I come to XA, open up to get stepped all over...feel like I'm being used and just get hurt? Same applies to classes, parties, get-to-gethers anything social. Personally speaking...it's when I open up I get shot. I don't know if anybody will ever realize how much they mean to me. It's very hard for me to express that for obvious reasons. If I know you I care about you deeply whether you hate my guts or you're my best friend, I've known you for 2 seconds or I've known you all my life. All I ask is that you please try not to hurt me....

Peace