The life of "Riggs"

Saturday, December 31, 2005

We are finally on our way home today! GOOD THING! I don’t know how much more of my family I can take...
So tonight is like the party night of the whole year and I’m expected to be at like 3 diff. ones but I really only want to go to one, YOURS KATY!!! haha...I’m not a huge fan of being with a bunch of people I don’t know. So if you read this and invited me over (Brandy) sorry but I’ll just go hang out with people I know. Don’t feel like getting sad either so Katy’s it is....
Stopped off at On The Border for lunch in Topeka. Really good food for those of you that haven’t ever eaten there. Anywho...I thought it funny that this group of older people, late 40's early 50's or so were so trashed it wasn’t funny. Or maybe it was...:-P
Hope you all have a fun and safe New Years!

Thursday, December 29, 2005

You gotta love the copy and paste function...due to the fact I’m on the road I can’t exactly access the net so I’ll just type this now and later at the hotel paste it on my site...sound good? GREAT!
I’m getting kinda excited about going to KSU. I wasn’t really wanting or planning on ending up there but I guess it’s where I’m supposed to go. Not complaining accept for the part that I can’t enroll ‘till two days before classes start. What kind of crap is that!?! Can’t change it...might as well not worry about it ;-P...
My parents love to just get out of town. They told me when I was little that I would understand someday. I think I’m beginning to finally get to that point. Hence all the posts about me wanting to travel and get the crap out of manhappenin’. Katy...wanna take me to chi-town with you??? PLEASE!!!! lol...
I’m reading CS Lewis’ book Mere Christianity. Great book if you haven’t read it yet. I’m sure DK has read it and can comment on it. Anyways...I haven’t finished it so maybe some questions will be answered. Is there a STRICT right and wrong? He talks about that issue a little bit in the beginning but I never really got what he was trying to say. I’ve always/beginning to believe that being a Christian is something that is personal. Obviously there are a few things that the Bible speaks against: sex before marriage, blasphemy of the holy spirit, etc. Everything else to me, stuff that seems "grey", is just between you and God. If you can’t get closer or praise Him through what you are doing then you shouldn’t do it. It has nothing to do whether the "bible says you can’t" or what someone says is wrong. Does that make sense to anyone? He also brought up a very good point. You can’t have bad without the good. For there to be "bad" there must be something good to base your opinion on. Make sense? Also, the bad things anyone does are have done to get something "good" in return. A bank robber doesn’t rob a bank just because it’s wrong or bad. He does it to get money, which to him is a good thing. Satan didn’t try and outdo God just because it was a bad thing to do. He wanted to be just as good or better...aka good result.
I have a degree now! I’m actually very excited about that! Granted it’s just an Associates in Arts from Highland Community College....def. something I’m happy about. This was something me and Trent were talking about the other day. Out of my senior class we are the only 2 that will be juniors. Everyone else either took 1-3 years off...taking 6 hours a semester, or just not going. Not sure if that’s sad or what haha.
Grace: (seems like I’m always writing you hah) Just curious about what part of the party thing you don’t understand. I don’t like just sitting there doing absolutely nothing...
Brandy: Thanks for the comments as usual! I might drop by and say hey...not sure what I’m doing yet. I kinda wanna hang out with Trent, haven’t seen him or really done much with him lately. His schedule is always opposite mine.
Dana: You getting excited?!?! Almost there! Keep waiting ok!
Everyone else: Have a happy New Year!!! Call me if you all are doin’ something!
Peace

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Hey Grace, thanks for reading and commenting on my site! I understand what you are saying.

Today was alright, went to topeka with sara, ate at On The Border than went to Best Buy and got National Treasure and Into the Blue with a gift card I had.

Tomorrow my family leaves for KC but THIS time I have a laptop and can totally get online at the hotel! YES!!! Not real sure what to say really. Me and Trent might got to this huge new years party...not really sure what I'm doing or if I even really want to go. If I'm driving I'm not drinking so I'd get really bored. Plus New Years is on Sunday...how dumb is that lol...out really late and then have to get up for church the next day? Might have to skip this one...hehe...

I've def. had the unique experience of getting to know someone. Extremely awesome in about all aspects. Doesn't it rock to really get to meet someone and find out that they are just amazing? So I know Rachel won't/probably won't read this, but if anybody ever has the chance to meet her....DO IT!!! :-)


So watching a movie on the way to KC tomorrow....hah...

Peace

Monday, December 26, 2005

Yay! Jessica is feeling better! So we're going to hang out tonight so I was going to pick up some flowers or something, until she changed plans, decides to hang out with her friend and watch a movie at her house and I'm here stuck at home with nothing....again...another fun night....Riggs again is screwed....

Peace

Sunday, December 25, 2005

bah humbug....

So I have yet to figure out the funness of Christmas accept for the presents part haha. I see my family all the time so no real sentimental attraction to that part of the deal. I know later there will be. My aunt decided that we WERE having christmas at her house...well that wasn't ok with my family so we just didn't go. So basically I've been bored all day accept for going to the movies and seing Cheaper By The Dozen 2 with my parents. That was a great movie! Called Jessica at 1 today to see how she was....didn't answer so I left a message. No call back yet, not sure if I should call her or just let it be. I don't want to seem needy or a pest or anything. Just drives me nuts....

You ever wonder if churches use your emotions to get the result they are looking for? I went to my parents church last night and I was kind of noticing that. Whenever the pastor would get "riled" up the crowd would get more rowdy "AMEN, HALLELUJA, GLORY" etc etc...is that stuff ok? Why use emotions when people get caught up in the moment....

How do you show you want to be apart of someone life, yet not look needy?

Friday, December 23, 2005

"pressing onward, pushing every hindrance aside out of my way 'cuz I want to know you more...." Where did that feeling go? Great song though....

Ok so I'm so done with stupid relationships. I want to just scream my brains out right now because i'm so freakin' frustrated. I tried to talk to her....but she just doesn't know. I don't understand how you don't know stuff like this. I know she has the URL to read this but right now I kinda hope she does.

"Were gonna have a party, turn the music up Let's get it started, go ahead shake ya butt"-Nate Dogg

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

"tis the season to be jolly fa-la-la-la-laaaaa-la-la-la-la..." Yippee....Abilene....(sarcasm)...ick...

So yesterday was a total blast. Hung out with Trent for most of it. Shot some pool...kicked his butt like none other...ALWAYS a fun time hehe...later last night Brandy decided she wanted to go look at christmas lights. That's something that is never fun with the fam but with friends isn't so bad lol. There's this house out in Wyndom(sp?) heights that is like TOTALLY decked out with blue and green lights. It was pretty sweet!

Today is supposed to be the christmas party at work. Not sure If i'm excited about that or not haha. I'll have to get off work before I can really have any fun eating the food I don't have to pay for hehe.

Anyone know what a laugh is? I mean honestly...what makes a laugh happen? Are we the only "animals" that have the capacity to laugh?

Peace...

Saturday, December 17, 2005

So I was told it was time for an update...not sure what there is to update being that my life is just THAT exciting!

Went to game night last night and that was alright I guess. Went to Little Apple Brewery with Katy and had a crown and coke..yum...than went to Trents and hung out for a little while before we hit up a party. Just chilled there for a while and then came home.

This morning I had to go with my dad to Dara's (dude that owns Dara's Fast Lane) and help set up a pool table. Problem is the guy has 3 cats, AKA I couldn't breathe and my inhalor didn't help any...so off home I went....just now finally getting to where I don't have to struggle to breathe.

Thanks for talking to me Jenna....I really appreciated it...

Peace out

Monday, December 12, 2005

Does anybody out there ever wonder what the heck we are doing in life? I mean come on...we only live ONCE! That's it...no more...no 2nd chances no rain checks no NOTHING. Of course we either go to heaven or hell afterwards but i'm talking about right this second. I'm not advocating that we all skip school, drop out of school, anything stupid like that but what are we living for? We use up so much time setting up our life for later that we totally skip the present. Does it ever feel like you are wasting so much time now just so you can live plush later? Nothing wrong with that I guess but I don't want to be 45 tomorrow and wish I was 21 again.

Current mood: lost and confused...

Saturday, December 10, 2005

I'm sitting in bed wondering what the heck is going on with my life. I'm debating everything I thought was true. My very foundation is crumbling and I don't know how to stop it. It's like I'm letting it happen because everything I thought to be true is being tested and I don't know what is truly the answer anymore.

This semester has literally rocked my world. It's challenged my faith like I've never had done before. What IS right? Who am I to tell what is right TO ME?

I'm going out with a very VERY cool girl! But I just found out last week that she doesn't have God in her heart. She believes in a higher being but doesn't feel the need for religion in her life right now. So basically I think that if she got creamed by a car she'd go to hell...or would she? Do you need to literally ask God in your heart to be saved? Isn't that basically expressing your belief in Him in the first place? So just believing would be enough right?

I've gotten drunk twice this month. I don't regret doing it! I get so tired of fitting into this mold that I just want to do what I want to do. Is that so wrong? Is it so wrong to be a rebel for once? Isn't that part of the college experience?

I want the lifelong friendships, brother-like friendships, co-existance with people my age! But I can't have that and I want it so bad. My best friend is livin' it up. Girls he really doesn't want, booze he can't resist, drunk every other night.....and get this...he's my only option of someone to move out with next year. How amazingly awesome is that?!?! *sarcasm* So what am I supposed to do?

I have the some of the most quality friends a guy could ask for. They are just on another level than me. Sam is graduating and moving, Pat and Ryan are interested in everything I'm not....list goes on....

I just want to live in a way that I don't have to worry all the time. Is that ok? Is that something someone that knows me would frown on? Can I do that? Is that ok since i'm a Christian? I'M SO SICK OF THAT CRAP!!!! I'm in a friggin mf'in box! Why should I have to go through that?

I'm tired of being the good kid that never gets asked to go anywhere....gets looked at different and basically labeled a loser....

I went out to eat at chili's with my fam....lots of people were at the bar drinking and eating and having a good time. THEY ARE RELAXING AND HAVING FUN!!! Why is it I can't do that? Why do I have to base EVERY THING on what someone else would think of me? Screw this! I'm so tired of being on a stage infront of all these ppl watching me and when I mess up I feel like I'll get flogged or something. Why can't I JUST LIVE!!!

Friday, December 09, 2005

Dukes Of Hazzard was a hilarious movie! Thanks Jess for bringing it over! You ever just have a good day? Skipped classes yesterday because I didn't feel like driving in the snow, had fun talking to a friend online I haven't talked to in a long time, played some poker online, work went by super fast and got to hang out some with Jason and Brandy, than Jessica till cough3amcough. Great times....

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Just let me in...show me how to get in....I'll stand out here forever...