Today was both good and bad. Good part was the subway my mom brought home for me for lunch....yum....the bad...well since I can't put any contacts in my right eye without it turning bright red, I have an eye doc's appmt. tomorrow at 11:45...which means skipping both classes that I didn't want to skip in the first place..."we're booked...." blah...

It's 11 o'clock and I'm totally not ready to go to bed, infact I'm actually starting to get really hungry so I think i'm off to get some food and watch a little tv...


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*sigh* I love Sundays...church with friends, football, and relaxation! Can't get any better than that! Been doing a lot of thinking about alcohol and my past weekend. If I had to do it all over again I'd totally do it. I experienced it for what it was and will most likely never ever do that again. Had a nice "chat" with my mom last night about it. She doesn't want me to become an alcoholic and ruin my life. Heck, ruin my life and not become an alcoholic, either or sounds like no fun to me. I can't say I'm done drinking. Just won't in extreme excess. Time to go pick up Sam...


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After watching that "teenage soap opera" Katy invited me over to play cards. But Sam and Jena had to go home early but oh well...it was still a lot of fun!

Ok...so last night was A BLAST! Went to Fast Eddy's with Trent, Joy, Sara, and Drew. Drew bought me a double rum and coke...kinda gross actually. Joy is freaking awesome and it was just a good time. Ever play pool slightly tipsy....ok ok...a lot tipsy...doesn't work very well....haha. I had to get drunk just once....very extremely weird feeling...kinda liked it...but not something I'll repeat anytime soon.

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So I'm sitting here watching a teenage soap opera...Everwood for those of you that were curious, pondering the curveball that life has thrown at me. The age of 21 is like a right of passage for all the alcoholic pleasure you may be seeking. For me, I'm not sure what "pleasure" it is that i'm seeking. I have no problem going out and having fun. Infact that's why i'm glad that I'm 21. Having a beer, drink, chick beer, whatever once in a while is totally ok. But i'm sooooo tired of being on this stage and everyone having the same goal..."lets get Riggs drunk!" Honestly I DO want to get drunk once. JUST once. But I don't want to do it with people I don't trust. I trust Trent just not the million other pot smoking alcholics that are going JUST to see me get drunk. I'm about to scream....so sick of it....

Well today, err yesterday now... was my 21st birthday. It was pretty cool. Hung out all day at my house and went out to eat at Old Chicago and played some pool.

Gotta say that Bacardi Raz is MUCH better than Old Milwaukee Light....oh gosh that beer was soooo nasty...Derek...why on earth did you buy a 30 pack of that junk??? Oh well...

I don't know her very well but love the fact she likes to laugh and have fun....def. look up to that!

Gotta love Sunday's! Sometimes I think they are a lot better than Saturdays haha. Finally got my PS2 back which def. means Madden online season has just begun! Don't worry Sam I'm not like SOME PEOPLE who play Halo too much :-P.

I have 33 hours of work next week. Not looking forward to that at all...def. looking forward to the paycheck though!

Not exactly sure what I'm going to do about this little predicument I might be in starting next school year. Long ways off I know. I'm seriously thinking about me and Trent moving into University Commons. I want to move out, and for what you get seems to be pretty reasonable. Well...now I hear something about Julie and Sarah wanting to room with us (4 room appmt). At first I'm not nec. opposed to the idea. I've known both of them for a LONG time and are both really cool. However I hate being looked at and judged for what I do so on the other hand I may not like it so much. Why does it seem like I'm being watched and critiqued for everything? I know God watches but other than Him. Sometimes I just wish I could make my own decisions not based on what other people think about it....hmmm

So my day today wasn't all that bad. I figured it would suck due to having 2 doc's appmt's today. The first one, dentist, went well. I think I wrote about that earlier. Than later I had to go to the Eye Doctor. Well...for all of you 3 ppl that read this I have Keratikonis (can't spell that but sound it out haha) it's where your eye bulges out into a football shape instead of maintaining the basketball shape. Basically means I can't see out of my right eye accept for blurry colors and light. So I went to a specialist 3 or so months ago to see about surgery but he said that he wanted to try hard contacts on me first. 20% chance they'd work due to the bulging of my eye. What it does is presses down on that bulge bringing things back into focus. Long story short the hard contacts work but the one on my right eye really really bothers me so I usually just don't wear it. Well today I went in and he said my eye was getting a little better and had an idea to try. "Piggyback it" as he called it. You take a non or very small prescription soft contact and put it on first...than put the hard one on and you can't feel the hard one. YAY! PLUS it made the vision out of my right eye better! How cool is that?

"So have you ever had any cavities?" This was asked after the X-ray of my teeth. Does this sound scary to anyone other than me? First of all she had the x-ray right in front of her. Secondly, I would probably have a cap of some sort on my teeth if I have had. She was really nice though! haha